LITTLE THINGS MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING
Yeah, this January when my best friend of eight long years, betrayed me, I was completely shattered. Life had no evident meaning for me after all the mental and physical harassment I went through after her goofup. And I'm mid January, the only thought in my mind was an honourable exit from this world. I could see life ebbing out of me in the spirals of smoke I chose to drown my tired soul in. I had lost faith in friendship, family and all else, and life simply had no more meaning for me.
But help from the Divine came at the eleventh hour when I met this guy Akshat Mittal, a little more than a month younger to me and it is because of him that I am alive, well and still sane, living as part of a world that has tried to deprive me of all my rights and made life a living hell. But Akshat, I can never repay what he has done for me - well, to be very honest, if we hadn't met that day, I would probably have taken my own life, I was so shattered. But he spent countless hours everyday to try to rekindle that spirit in me and today, almost seven months down the line, I'm still here because he has always stood by me lime an unbreakable pillar of strength.
When my debut novel "Beyond the Horizon " was launched, I spoke about this twenty-five year old guy who reinstated my faith in myself, my life and above all I'm friendship and other integral human relationships.
His presence that day made my eyes moist, I was almost crying with happiness that despite it being an office Day, he managed to find time and travel all the way from Gurgaon to Delhi, just to See Me happy. I was wrong when I thought that this world doesn't have any good people. Yes this world has good people, albeit few but those of us who manage to forge a bond with them are truly blessed. And no matter how much I do, I can never repay him for all that this unknown guy has done for me.
Just to make a point clear, no we are not in any relationship other than "friendship" and I cherish that bond with him always. His name, though is always enough to bring a smile on my face and his whatsapp texts are what I keep waiting for each day (though I know it's childsh for me to feel hurt or upset whenever he fails to text me), still I hope our friendship will linger way beyond eternity.
Today afternoon I went to MGF METROPOLITAN MALL in Gurgaon because he is going on a vacation for his birthday and I had to meet him before he left. A few handmade gifts and some shopping, because I had to return to Patel Nagar, and we didn't have much time, but I thoroughly enjoyed every moment of those three hours. Thank you so much Akshat for making me realize that it is in the little things of life that we find true happiness. You have actually, magically transformed my world by giving me much more than just a shoulder to cry on. Thanks a ton for everything.
But help from the Divine came at the eleventh hour when I met this guy Akshat Mittal, a little more than a month younger to me and it is because of him that I am alive, well and still sane, living as part of a world that has tried to deprive me of all my rights and made life a living hell. But Akshat, I can never repay what he has done for me - well, to be very honest, if we hadn't met that day, I would probably have taken my own life, I was so shattered. But he spent countless hours everyday to try to rekindle that spirit in me and today, almost seven months down the line, I'm still here because he has always stood by me lime an unbreakable pillar of strength.
When my debut novel "Beyond the Horizon " was launched, I spoke about this twenty-five year old guy who reinstated my faith in myself, my life and above all I'm friendship and other integral human relationships.
Just to make a point clear, no we are not in any relationship other than "friendship" and I cherish that bond with him always. His name, though is always enough to bring a smile on my face and his whatsapp texts are what I keep waiting for each day (though I know it's childsh for me to feel hurt or upset whenever he fails to text me), still I hope our friendship will linger way beyond eternity.
Today afternoon I went to MGF METROPOLITAN MALL in Gurgaon because he is going on a vacation for his birthday and I had to meet him before he left. A few handmade gifts and some shopping, because I had to return to Patel Nagar, and we didn't have much time, but I thoroughly enjoyed every moment of those three hours. Thank you so much Akshat for making me realize that it is in the little things of life that we find true happiness. You have actually, magically transformed my world by giving me much more than just a shoulder to cry on. Thanks a ton for everything.
Well today I am here, tomorrow I may not be here. But you know you can always count on me. A writer is always immortal - just call out my name and you shall find me through my words and verses. I have a lot on my plate at the moment to deal with, but I don't want to be an interference in your life in any way, though I know you are always there for me. Always. So if my any quirk of destiny, something happens to me, I bestow you the legacy of all my books, the royalties I shall receive for my publications and most importantly the story of my life which you, and you alone know. So now I know, even if death grabs me by the neck, I have no worries because I have entrusted all of it to someone whom I trust more than myself. And I sincerely hope, just in case I am not alive, you are the perfect person who shall do justice to my story. Don't let Samrudhi remain only as a memory. Please make sure all her sinners are punished and justice prevails at long last. That is my one and final request to you.
And in a prayer to God, I tell the Almighty that he has given me one single strand of hope to live on with, despite being broken and fragmented many times over. But this strand, my friendship with Akshat, ease don't take it away from me, because exposed to the brutal falsities of this dystopia, I don't have the strength to go on alone anymore. So please, till my dying day, this is my only request to the Almighty that he be kind enough to protect and rejuvenate this bond of friendship. Because to be very honest, if I lose this last strand I shall be completely broken and then I don't think I can live any longer. So please God Almighty , keep this bond alive as long as I live. Thank you so much Akshat for everything... I fall short of words to talk about how much I owe you, but yes I do realize that a friend like you is extremely rare and now that I have been blessed with such a bond, please don't leave my hand, ever. Please!
That's all for today, the post dedicated to one of those few special people in my life who have made several remarkable impacts on my life. Thanking you Akshat for everything
Lots of love and best wishes,
SAMRUDHI (poet, author, blogger)
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